Forgive Yesterday
Tessa Amery
This installation is the resting place of a daily ritual: a three-month endurance piece, with one weaving created each day under a set of self-imposed rules…
- With each new day, bring one weaving into being
- Do not force something to be good, it does not need to be. It will only ever be as good as you are.
- Allow yourself to be vulnerable, it is only you and your weaving.
- Be honest.
- Hoard materials, objects, and ideas.
- Give it the time it deserves.
- Forgive yesterday.
At first, the weavings came easily.
Then they didn’t.
As the days passed, I started to see my weavings as beings.
They stopped feeling like documentation, and began to feel like a relationship; mutual, intimate, alive.
Once the honey-moon phase had passed, I started to hate my weavings.
I found my weavings in the bottom of my tea, in the ache of missing my mother.
I walked ten kilometers with them strapped to my feet, hoping they’d bruise.
But with the hate came guilt.
Guilt For giving them only the discards of my day.
For avoiding them, for holding back when they asked for more.
In a plea for forgiveness, I wove without stopping.
Giving it the time it had always deserved.
It didn’t forgive me.
Please find below a link to my daily weaving log; a look into my process.
